Mental health check-in

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I think I am taking way too many of these


Life under a solipsistic, narcissist is difficult enough, but trying to move on to bigger and better things right now in the VA is crushing.
 
I had my one on one with my boss last Thursday.
He asked how I was doing and when I described things, he said, “That’s burn-out.”


The thing is that it’s not a full-on, all the time thing. It comes and goes.
Being networking nerds, he described it as “dropping packets” and that’s so damned accurate.

I didn’t see it. I realised I’d hit a wall once in a while, but didn’t think more of it than that.

Anyway, all is well at work. Good performance review.
Busier than ever though.

I need to push away some home projects or pick up an easy one that lets my brain shut down while I’m doing it.
This is kind of me. This month has been non-stop work (yesterday was my first day of not working either at the school or an actually gig in three weeks) and its all fairly high pressure stuff. Plus, Mrs. Wein was laid off and then found a new job in January but the new job is no longer remote and is hugely stressful for her as well so we're really trying to support each other as much as possible without fucking up our own responsibilities. And kids.
 
Funny - I had a pelvic MRI last week that showed two grade 5 prostate lesions and will be getting them biopsied in May but somehow I'm not going over the edge about this. I guess I always expected to get cancer (both parents and my younger brother died from it and my sister had a mild case of breast cancer) so it just isn't really freaking me out. I just wish I could get the biopsy out of the way so we could figure out if/how it makes sense to treat it. I'm going to be traveling to CA and HI over the next few weeks, so I'll probable come home with some supplies that will help me deal with it even better! :hippie:
 
Funny - I had a pelvic MRI last week that showed two grade 5 prostate lesions and will be getting them biopsied in May but somehow I'm not going over the edge about this. I guess I always expected to get cancer (both parents and my younger brother died from it and my sister had a mild case of breast cancer) so it just isn't really freaking me out. I just wish I could get the biopsy out of the way so we could figure out if/how it makes sense to treat it. I'm going to be traveling to CA and HI over the next few weeks, so I'll probable come home with some supplies that will help me deal with it even better! :hippie:
Mojo!
 
Mojo. My wife had breast cancer a few years back and went aggressive with the treatment, which was the best decision for her situation. She's had a lot of cancer in her family and wanted to get that shit right out of there.
 
I'm struggling a little. We just had our giant gala this weekend so the biggest and most stressful day of the year at work seems to be behind me and now I'm on spring break trying to get myself to do my taxes. So many things going on in my life and with my family that need my attention and I just want to sit here in quiet room with the dogs.
 
Mojo to all.

His Majesty's Inspectorate of Education (literally their real name) are coming in to inspect my work at the start of May.

Tte week of inspection will be fine, we've a lot of good stuff to show off imo. But it's a shit tonne of work pulling evidence and data, having briefings, meeting with senior managers from the authority in the run up to it.

Small waves of anxiety washing through now and again but I'm trying to be pragmatic. I have a couple of huge jobs to get over the line for it, one of which I've almost finished tonight after bursting myself over the weekend WFH. There'll be more to come but I feel OK albeit it means the rest of the day job stuff getting kicked down the line.
 
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