Got word that one of my cousins died yesterday. No details yet but I'd put money on it being drug related.
Bit of a head fuck trying to unpack how I feel. That entire wing of our family are horrible bastards that put my mum and uncle through the ringer and have done for decades but this cousin led a decent life until about 10 years ago before getting sucked in trying to help her sister when the state were going to take her kids away.
It was too much to deal with so she hit the drink, her marriage broke up, lost a good job, hit the blues and heroin, got in toe with some really really bad people, lots of trouble with the police and this is where it's ended.
There's absolutely no way I'm attending my aunt or other cousin's funeral when they're time comes but I'm torn on this one.
Bit of a head fuck trying to unpack how I feel. That entire wing of our family are horrible bastards that put my mum and uncle through the ringer and have done for decades but this cousin led a decent life until about 10 years ago before getting sucked in trying to help her sister when the state were going to take her kids away.
It was too much to deal with so she hit the drink, her marriage broke up, lost a good job, hit the blues and heroin, got in toe with some really really bad people, lots of trouble with the police and this is where it's ended.
There's absolutely no way I'm attending my aunt or other cousin's funeral when they're time comes but I'm torn on this one.