Dr. Google says I am experiencing anhedonia. It’s a symptom rather than a disease or syndrome, or whatever.
I feel somewhat lucky that I noticed something was going on with me and thought to try to figure out what was going on.
I do have moments of happiness, but mostly, I have no interest in things that I used to like to do.
If you were to say, “Do this thing. You’ll have fun.” I won’t disagree, but I won’t care and I won’t look forward to whatever it is, and I’ll likely actively avoid doing it. The fun stuff is very much in the moment and just happen rather than as a result of me wanting them to happen…if that makes sense.
There some basic things I can do at home to help before it gets serious.
All make sense. Most are things like sunshine, fresh air, exercise, diet. All things that I should be doing….but am not enthused about doing. It’s kinda circular.
I’m sharing it here to kind of get it in print and maybe make myself accountable to do the things that I need to do.